I haven't taken any photos or written anything or read anything for a very long time.

I feel completely uninspired and unmotivated.

For someone who doesn't really have all that much to do I feel so busy and tired.

Always tired.

I wish I had a job I didn't care about working for people I didn't know so that I could take tomorrow off and have a day off to catch up.

If I lived closer to the city there would be less issues. But then I would probably feel worse because sometimes feel that coming home is the only time to escape, to a place surrounded by trees and very far from people cars places temptations strangers.

All of this is very ironic because I am going on a holiday to a tropical place on saturday for a week. Going on holiday makes me more stressed because there are things I absolutely have to do before then that I have been putting off but now I have no choice. It's good because it forces me to do it, but then I get that icky feeling in my arms and legs, like claustrophobic frustration because I'm doing things I don't like doing and don't want to be doing.

Even more ironic is that here I am writing all this to procrastinate.

I should be happy because I'm going to one of my favourite places on the Earth.

I am happy. I will be. When I'm on the plane. And everything's done.

new pic on my tumblr
this is my friend alex. I think she looks very beautiful. I also love the way the wind has blown my hair in the way. one of those happy mistakes that sometimes pop up in photography.

I kind of hate poetry.

sorry.

though as with most things, there are exceptions...

I also hate emoticons :) ;) :p :s XD

and yet at times I find myself using them.

like I said, there are exceptions.



that's all.

Sexy People I Have Been Painfully Close to Lately.

WHO?
WHY?
Micheal Tomlinson (from Yves Klein Blue. )
His facial expressions, stage antics and witty interview banter stole my heart.

Sarah Blasko
It does get a bit awkward watching her though, not just because of the glazed over, wistful idiot grin on my face, but I can't dance because ever since I first saw her live I've modeled my dance moves on hers so when the baby sees its mother...the universe can't cope. There are minor implosions.

Wayne Coyne
I TOUCHED him and his BUBBLE and magic spurted from his every orifice and now pretty much every fantasy and daydream of mine involves bumping into him in the supermarket.

The Middle East
As in the band. As in yes every member. Anyone who contributes to sound like that has a place in my bed.

Andrew VeeDub
Hype aside, seeing this boy in the flesh was nothing but a melt a swoon and a buckle with a whole lotta moist.

scandinavians are fucking attractive

new favourite blog

http://yvanrodic.blogspot.com/

I do have a bit of a thing for ol' yvan.

Not as much as LongBlackHotBoy though. Lord, he is a babe. I wish he would come into work more often. Sometimes he comes in and stays for hours. I wish I had more excuses to go near him. He smells damn good.