I feel sad and yet I feel numb, I feel upset and yet I feel relief. I don't know what to think.

I am heartbroken for the grief your loved ones will carry forever.
I am confused because the last year has been emotionally tumultuous. You went from being a great friend to someone I feared. I choose now to focus on the better memories.
I am angry at the pain you have caused many.
I hope that now you are at peace.