2009-11-22
2009-11-10
2009-11-09
2009-10-31
2009-10-30
2009-10-24
hey little bro! you want sunnies huh? what you want sunnies for? oh you're going to a dress-up party nice. Some kids 13th birthday, sweet. What's the theme? Favourite Occupation. Oh yeah, I'm feeling that vibe. So what are you going as? A Hippy Stoner. ... Ok then. Dude, you kinda look like a regular guy. You're wearing your normal clothes. (poor effort man...) Look, why don't you wear this large, white, faux fur coat...and the pink docs....and these hot pink raver sunglasses...and go as a Pimp? yeah that looks rad. Ok have fun. Peace out bro.
2009-10-22
it's strange looking back at old tumblr posts.
some photos seem so dated. I want to take them down but then it feels wrong, like deleting a diary entry. then the other voices that live in my head say fuck it, the site is for visual pleasures not a historical record.
some photos are kinda shit and I wonder why I even put them up.
some photos seem so dated. I want to take them down but then it feels wrong, like deleting a diary entry. then the other voices that live in my head say fuck it, the site is for visual pleasures not a historical record.
some photos are kinda shit and I wonder why I even put them up.
2009-10-21
yt junkie phase cont. ...
here, have a selection of le favourite film clips for today >>
YKB
polka...
getting wise...
make up your mind...
because of what I love and like to call "glossy rustic." sub par quality and simplicity looks good. also because of mad crush on M. Tomlinson*...
*you've got to see him live, long live and god bless such excitement and enthusiasm...
YKB
polka...
getting wise...
make up your mind...
because of what I love and like to call "glossy rustic." sub par quality and simplicity looks good. also because of mad crush on M. Tomlinson*...
*you've got to see him live, long live and god bless such excitement and enthusiasm...
2009-10-19
2009-10-14
**disclaimer - this is not a blog about how lily copied jenny, I mean lagerfeld basically copied lily (though as a 'muse' I guess it is her job to 'inspire' him) by giving his show a country theme and getting her to sing at it (note: enjoy awkward dancing of models as back up singers.) Nor am I pointing out how much more I like jenny's song, even though I do happen to like her song a lot. No, I just want to share some viewing pleasures because I LOVE these retro-country style clips. The costumes, the props, the cheese - bliss!
LILY
JENNY
LILY
JENNY
2009-10-13
2009-09-13
2009-09-12
essay on the past
I sometimes wonder if I would have thought the past was so wonderful if I actually lived in at the time (that is the past according to the present, but if I were living in it, it would be the present.)
The thing is...is that everything was so new and out there for everyone back then. All the wonderful sights and sounds. I don't think we can fully appreciate that now. Nothing's really "new." an iPhone? but then that's just a computer/phone/music player joined as one. These mp3 players? just a more modern version of portable music. In terms of fashion it seems everthing has been done. I challenge someone to think of something really, truly new.
Back in the 60's however, you had, for example, the birth of the mini skirt, literally the first time women wore such short skirts. The music was like nothing else. Vague influences were completely altered to create a whole new sound. Do that these days you just end up with heavier electro. I don't think we will ever hear really good, but really different music ever again. It's a sad though I suppose, but at least what we've got is good.
The thing is...is that everything was so new and out there for everyone back then. All the wonderful sights and sounds. I don't think we can fully appreciate that now. Nothing's really "new." an iPhone? but then that's just a computer/phone/music player joined as one. These mp3 players? just a more modern version of portable music. In terms of fashion it seems everthing has been done. I challenge someone to think of something really, truly new.
Back in the 60's however, you had, for example, the birth of the mini skirt, literally the first time women wore such short skirts. The music was like nothing else. Vague influences were completely altered to create a whole new sound. Do that these days you just end up with heavier electro. I don't think we will ever hear really good, but really different music ever again. It's a sad though I suppose, but at least what we've got is good.
2009-09-06
I hate modern technology.
I hate that my sister is on facebook on her phone 80% of the time at one of the greatest family get togethers I've ever been to and then punches me real hard and claws me with her talons when I move her phone off the dinner table.
I get moments where I hate facebook for taking up so much of life. I hate how much info is on facebook. This is one of those times. So I'm having a bit of a boycott. Deleting my photos. No status updates. Maybe a "friend" purge. (Ironically all this will involve spending more time on-site). No one will no this though unless by chance they read this blog because I'm not hypocritical enough to post a status proclaiming this semi-boycott.
I don't hate all online. I still like blogs. A lot. I like going on blog journeys following links from one blog to another. And porn of course. Online is good for porn. Hey no f-book = more bandwith for porn! How about that. Spread the word..
I hate that my sister is on facebook on her phone 80% of the time at one of the greatest family get togethers I've ever been to and then punches me real hard and claws me with her talons when I move her phone off the dinner table.
I get moments where I hate facebook for taking up so much of life. I hate how much info is on facebook. This is one of those times. So I'm having a bit of a boycott. Deleting my photos. No status updates. Maybe a "friend" purge. (Ironically all this will involve spending more time on-site). No one will no this though unless by chance they read this blog because I'm not hypocritical enough to post a status proclaiming this semi-boycott.
I don't hate all online. I still like blogs. A lot. I like going on blog journeys following links from one blog to another. And porn of course. Online is good for porn. Hey no f-book = more bandwith for porn! How about that. Spread the word..
2009-08-26
I haven't taken any photos or written anything or read anything for a very long time.
I feel completely uninspired and unmotivated.
For someone who doesn't really have all that much to do I feel so busy and tired.
Always tired.
I wish I had a job I didn't care about working for people I didn't know so that I could take tomorrow off and have a day off to catch up.
If I lived closer to the city there would be less issues. But then I would probably feel worse because sometimes feel that coming home is the only time to escape, to a place surrounded by trees and very far from people cars places temptations strangers.
All of this is very ironic because I am going on a holiday to a tropical place on saturday for a week. Going on holiday makes me more stressed because there are things I absolutely have to do before then that I have been putting off but now I have no choice. It's good because it forces me to do it, but then I get that icky feeling in my arms and legs, like claustrophobic frustration because I'm doing things I don't like doing and don't want to be doing.
Even more ironic is that here I am writing all this to procrastinate.
I should be happy because I'm going to one of my favourite places on the Earth.
I am happy. I will be. When I'm on the plane. And everything's done.
I feel completely uninspired and unmotivated.
For someone who doesn't really have all that much to do I feel so busy and tired.
Always tired.
I wish I had a job I didn't care about working for people I didn't know so that I could take tomorrow off and have a day off to catch up.
If I lived closer to the city there would be less issues. But then I would probably feel worse because sometimes feel that coming home is the only time to escape, to a place surrounded by trees and very far from people cars places temptations strangers.
All of this is very ironic because I am going on a holiday to a tropical place on saturday for a week. Going on holiday makes me more stressed because there are things I absolutely have to do before then that I have been putting off but now I have no choice. It's good because it forces me to do it, but then I get that icky feeling in my arms and legs, like claustrophobic frustration because I'm doing things I don't like doing and don't want to be doing.
Even more ironic is that here I am writing all this to procrastinate.
I should be happy because I'm going to one of my favourite places on the Earth.
I am happy. I will be. When I'm on the plane. And everything's done.
2009-08-12
new pic on my tumblr
this is my friend alex. I think she looks very beautiful. I also love the way the wind has blown my hair in the way. one of those happy mistakes that sometimes pop up in photography.2009-08-10
2009-08-07
Sexy People I Have Been Painfully Close to Lately.
WHO?
WHY?
Micheal Tomlinson (from Yves Klein Blue. )
His facial expressions, stage antics and witty interview banter stole my heart.
Sarah Blasko
It does get a bit awkward watching her though, not just because of the glazed over, wistful idiot grin on my face, but I can't dance because ever since I first saw her live I've modeled my dance moves on hers so when the baby sees its mother...the universe can't cope. There are minor implosions.
Wayne Coyne
I TOUCHED him and his BUBBLE and magic spurted from his every orifice and now pretty much every fantasy and daydream of mine involves bumping into him in the supermarket.
The Middle East
As in the band. As in yes every member. Anyone who contributes to sound like that has a place in my bed.
Andrew VeeDub
Hype aside, seeing this boy in the flesh was nothing but a melt a swoon and a buckle with a whole lotta moist.
WHY?
Micheal Tomlinson (from Yves Klein Blue. )
His facial expressions, stage antics and witty interview banter stole my heart.
Sarah Blasko
It does get a bit awkward watching her though, not just because of the glazed over, wistful idiot grin on my face, but I can't dance because ever since I first saw her live I've modeled my dance moves on hers so when the baby sees its mother...the universe can't cope. There are minor implosions.
Wayne Coyne
I TOUCHED him and his BUBBLE and magic spurted from his every orifice and now pretty much every fantasy and daydream of mine involves bumping into him in the supermarket.
The Middle East
As in the band. As in yes every member. Anyone who contributes to sound like that has a place in my bed.
Andrew VeeDub
Hype aside, seeing this boy in the flesh was nothing but a melt a swoon and a buckle with a whole lotta moist.
scandinavians are fucking attractive
new favourite blog
http://yvanrodic.blogspot.com/
I do have a bit of a thing for ol' yvan.
Not as much as LongBlackHotBoy though. Lord, he is a babe. I wish he would come into work more often. Sometimes he comes in and stays for hours. I wish I had more excuses to go near him. He smells damn good.
2009-07-29
from time to time, I enjoy a physical translation of my inner Vyv
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9TSWkWqX2E
I'M SO BORED.
I'm so bored I logged on to my twitter. yes I have twitter, of course I do, I loathe everything about it yet I accept the fact that - like facebook - it will most likely one day be an essential part of my life. I used to abhore facebook. Now it's like, my top myspace friend.
anyway I got so bored on twitter I was about to die of boredom when my heart stopped due to pure lack of enthusiasm to keep beating meaninglessly so here is a boring blog on boredom that no one is going to read and anyone who does read it is going to be pissed off because my boring blog bored them and wasted their time and eye power.
I should point out that I'm not just bored atm, I've been so bored the last two days, bored of everything, my location, my lists, my self, my peoples, my prospects. Maybe it's just because I had a mad weekend and I'm sad it's overwhere. Whatevs. I'll tell you about the weekend after I sleep.
2009-07-20
so people who already get the frankie newsletter may already have seen this (or you might have come across it somehow on your web journeys anyway..) but it really is such a fun little website, I highly recommend a look...
http://www.thescribbleproject.com/
http://www.thescribbleproject.com/
2009-07-14
I feel sad and yet I feel numb, I feel upset and yet I feel relief. I don't know what to think.
I am heartbroken for the grief your loved ones will carry forever.
I am confused because the last year has been emotionally tumultuous. You went from being a great friend to someone I feared. I choose now to focus on the better memories.
I am angry at the pain you have caused many.
I hope that now you are at peace.
I am heartbroken for the grief your loved ones will carry forever.
I am confused because the last year has been emotionally tumultuous. You went from being a great friend to someone I feared. I choose now to focus on the better memories.
I am angry at the pain you have caused many.
I hope that now you are at peace.
2009-07-13
thou shalt remain nameless, faceless, unfucked...
To quote the infamous Chuck Bass "you held a brief fascination..."
2009-07-12
pray on God, but steer away from the rocks.
it's his birthday and he had a party in the huge garden. who's garden is this? perhaps it belongs to his grandparents, or uncle or some other distant relative. perhaps it is just a random garden we made a party at. that would maybe be more likely. it's an amazing garden, a maze of windy paths nestled in a valley and stretching up the slopes. there are large autumn coloured trees and thick undergrowth below. wildflowers. it's the day after and i come to and refocus. take in the surroundings. the blank spot in my mind that should be memories of the night before. the pain on my lower back. what is this pain? we eat leftover custard pudding and find i am newly inked. there is a fresh tattoo on my lower back. a sentence that starts on one hip and stretches all the way across my back to the other. the writing is large and spiky. it's messy. no one can read it. does it make sense? is that word spelled wrong? is it even a word? it is a word. a sentence. yet i still can't read it. i can't yet focus my eyes or my mind. the mystery deepens. when did i get this? where how why who. we are all stuck halfway between horror and amusement. we drive around in a golf cart trying to piece together this puzzle. my back still hurts. i wonder if it is indeed real or just permanent marker. i see if i can rub it off but it seems to scab up. i leave it so that if it turns out it is real i won't pull off the scab and make it look messy. i need to find some cream for this. we find the birthday boy. he is wearing a baseball cap and eating trifle. there is a lot of leftover pudding and cold sausages around. if only there were water, i'm so thirsty. he is impressed by my new addition and proud that someone got so messed up at his party they got a tattoo they don't even understand without realising it. i try and feel regret because it is what everyone expects and yet i can't help but smile when I twist around to look in a mirror because i have a new tattoo and i think it looks pretty cool. i realise when i look at the mirror image of the tattoo, i can read the words. they say...
2009-07-08
FestFashFest
It's coming up festival time again with Splendour and the question on everyone's lips (mine...) is not who is fave act, where to stay, how to smuggle drugs across the border, how to nab a wristband for the little sis, how to stretch few pennies very far, no... it's what to wear.
Do I go for the comfort-over-looks? ugly poo colour shorts that won't show dirt and with pockets to hold essentials, t-shirt so the boobs don't fall out in a dark colour that won't go see through, obligatory ugly cap and the not-so-shining glory of runners and ankle socks?
Or on the other end of the scale Fashion Statement over Fun Times. This is for girls who know they aren't going to be bouncing round in the mosh a whole lot. Blow drys will not be ruined by hoses or head sweat. No excess movement to flash nipples from behind low cut tops. Sandal clad feet will not risk squashed toes. Heavy makeup will not run.
Then there are the Festival Classics. Fedora anyone? fringed vest? Denim cut offs. Wayfarers. Good options if you want to blend in. Which is lame.
There's one more group to mention, just because I have such a love hate relationship with these fashionistas. These babies see the true potential of a festival - a chance to get their gear off. Think arse cheeks hanging out of hotpants. Bikini tops and fairy wings. Oversized pink or white sunnies that cover more than their actual clothes. Ratty black or bleached blonde hair. Chunky sneakers. If you want a chance to see some tits or vaj hang round one of these chickybabes, especially near the end of the last day.
So what about me?
I would like a pair of lace up boots to wear. Docs that actually fit. Or brown or black op shop gems. I have some dresses to wear. And I'm probably going to get a wolf tattooed on my face. You'll just have to wait and seeeeee.....
Do I go for the comfort-over-looks? ugly poo colour shorts that won't show dirt and with pockets to hold essentials, t-shirt so the boobs don't fall out in a dark colour that won't go see through, obligatory ugly cap and the not-so-shining glory of runners and ankle socks?
Or on the other end of the scale Fashion Statement over Fun Times. This is for girls who know they aren't going to be bouncing round in the mosh a whole lot. Blow drys will not be ruined by hoses or head sweat. No excess movement to flash nipples from behind low cut tops. Sandal clad feet will not risk squashed toes. Heavy makeup will not run.
Then there are the Festival Classics. Fedora anyone? fringed vest? Denim cut offs. Wayfarers. Good options if you want to blend in. Which is lame.
There's one more group to mention, just because I have such a love hate relationship with these fashionistas. These babies see the true potential of a festival - a chance to get their gear off. Think arse cheeks hanging out of hotpants. Bikini tops and fairy wings. Oversized pink or white sunnies that cover more than their actual clothes. Ratty black or bleached blonde hair. Chunky sneakers. If you want a chance to see some tits or vaj hang round one of these chickybabes, especially near the end of the last day.
So what about me?
I would like a pair of lace up boots to wear. Docs that actually fit. Or brown or black op shop gems. I have some dresses to wear. And I'm probably going to get a wolf tattooed on my face. You'll just have to wait and seeeeee.....
2009-07-07
my name is thalea, and I judge.
Time: 8.11pm Temperature: 8 degrees C
Me: Singlet. Long sleeve thick top. Knitted 80's jumper. Tights and socks and boots. Gloves. Umbrella. Duffle coat.
Bus Stop Whores: Tops as dresses..
If you get pneumonia, you deserve it.
Me: Singlet. Long sleeve thick top. Knitted 80's jumper. Tights and socks and boots. Gloves. Umbrella. Duffle coat.
Bus Stop Whores: Tops as dresses..
If you get pneumonia, you deserve it.
2009-07-05
i am hungover and bored.
Have you kissed anyone in the past 10 days?
got face raped by melinda
Last person you shared food with?
don't share my food. oh nomnom
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
that would be a bit hypocritical...
Know any mechanical stuff about cars?
I can take an engine to pieces and rebuild it with my bare hands
Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
he's now my wife.
Are you shy?
yessir
Could things possibly get any better?
it's getting better all the time...
Plans for tonight?
wine
What's been different this year?
the date.
Where were you at 2am?
where wasn't I!!!!
Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
what a nasty question. I hate no one.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
who cares
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
yeah....about SEX
Has there been anyone in particular on your mind at all today?
myself
Do you love the last person you called today?
haven't called anyone. never call. hate phone.
Are you taller than your mom?
american quiz! explains the dumb questions. I keep deleting really boring ones by the way.
Have you held hands with anyone today?
only the old lady who helped me cross the street
Have a best friend?
YOU
If you were upset, who's the first girl/guy you would go to?
dolly doctor
Honestly, does you crush/boyfriend/girlfriend like you back?
no/no/yes
You had sex last night, didn't you?
define sex...
What did you and the last person you talked on the phone about?
no phone. hate phone.
Has anyone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
yes. because I totally remember details about life like that.
How many kids do you want to have?
twenty-five. gonna beat that duggar bitch.
At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?
THIS QUIZ
Who are all of your texts from?
oh just wait while I get my phone and list them for you...
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
nah man, I like em in uniform. School uniform.
Do you like flowers?
yes
Did you enjoy your day?
not until I started this!
Do you love anybody?
everybody
How do you feel about guys/girls smoking?
population control
What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
opened my eyes
What were you doing at 8 this morning?
wanking.
What are you craving right now?
nicotine. haloumi.
Three hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?
I was patting a boy dog. Does that count?
Will you be up before seven am tomorrow?
nope
Do you have curly hair?
head hair? nope.
How often do you listen to music?
24/7. I have an implant.
GOODBYE
got face raped by melinda
Last person you shared food with?
don't share my food. oh nomnom
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
that would be a bit hypocritical...
Know any mechanical stuff about cars?
I can take an engine to pieces and rebuild it with my bare hands
Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
he's now my wife.
Are you shy?
yessir
Could things possibly get any better?
it's getting better all the time...
Plans for tonight?
wine
What's been different this year?
the date.
Where were you at 2am?
where wasn't I!!!!
Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
what a nasty question. I hate no one.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
who cares
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
yeah....about SEX
Has there been anyone in particular on your mind at all today?
myself
Do you love the last person you called today?
haven't called anyone. never call. hate phone.
Are you taller than your mom?
american quiz! explains the dumb questions. I keep deleting really boring ones by the way.
Have you held hands with anyone today?
only the old lady who helped me cross the street
Have a best friend?
YOU
If you were upset, who's the first girl/guy you would go to?
dolly doctor
Honestly, does you crush/boyfriend/girlfriend like you back?
no/no/yes
You had sex last night, didn't you?
define sex...
What did you and the last person you talked on the phone about?
no phone. hate phone.
Has anyone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
yes. because I totally remember details about life like that.
How many kids do you want to have?
twenty-five. gonna beat that duggar bitch.
At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?
THIS QUIZ
Who are all of your texts from?
oh just wait while I get my phone and list them for you...
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
nah man, I like em in uniform. School uniform.
Do you like flowers?
yes
Did you enjoy your day?
not until I started this!
Do you love anybody?
everybody
How do you feel about guys/girls smoking?
population control
What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
opened my eyes
What were you doing at 8 this morning?
wanking.
What are you craving right now?
nicotine. haloumi.
Three hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?
I was patting a boy dog. Does that count?
Will you be up before seven am tomorrow?
nope
Do you have curly hair?
head hair? nope.
How often do you listen to music?
24/7. I have an implant.
GOODBYE
2009-07-04
Long Distance.. Relationship?
Giving your email out while overseas might seem like a harmless, friendly way to bond with the locals, but be prepared for a barrage of emails and declarations of love from people you don't really remember at all...
MAULIK
Saturday
2pm: hey thalia how are you ? what are you doing?
2:22pm: what are you doing sweet heart?
Sunday
11:47am: why you not send email to me i miss you lot i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss............................
12:13pm: hey good morning how are you ? may be you are fine
2:04pm: hey i miss you lot and i love you lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt..........................................................................................................
MAULIK
Saturday
2pm: hey thalia how are you ? what are you doing?
2:22pm: what are you doing sweet heart?
Sunday
11:47am: why you not send email to me i miss you lot i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss............................
12:13pm: hey good morning how are you ? may be you are fine
2:04pm: hey i miss you lot and i love you lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt..........................................................................................................
2009-06-27
but I do like my red wine...
...oh so much so I will spend my last few dollars on a fine drop of house vintage.
And then come home & blog about how nice it was.
Why is my bed so much more comfortable when it is unmade and naked, no sheets, quilt covers, pillow cases, just a jumble of blankets?
I wish I was naked right now.
And then come home & blog about how nice it was.
Why is my bed so much more comfortable when it is unmade and naked, no sheets, quilt covers, pillow cases, just a jumble of blankets?
I wish I was naked right now.
2009-06-21
I went to the lolly shop today.
Why do we stop doing these things when we get old?
Lolly shops are such lovely places. All that gaudy packaging housing tasty treats and hyperactive excitement. I remembered going there in the pre-pubescent days with about 20c in my pocket and a whole afternoon to take my time spending it. I remembered eating whole bags of lollies and not feeling sick and headachey after. I wept when I was told there were no pineapples. I was tempted by fudge like nothing else since becoming vegan. I bought a whole stash of sweets for me and my brother and his friend for about $2. I'm eating sherbet now. Excellent.
The funny thing was that the shop was quite full but every else in there had to be over 30... like the pair of big burly blokes in car brand shirts buying thickshakes... the English couple buying extreme sour sweets as though it were the most daring act of their lives.
The sad thing was when I ate some sour string it got caught in my throat and I had this gross sour biting in my throat all day. I'm so old I can't even eat lollies properly anymore?
Also if you see me in the next few days my skin has gone to shit I am pimple city but that started before the sweetie binge...
SUGAR POWER
2009-06-17
This is my tattoo. This photo was taken just after it was finished, so it's nice and fresh and juicy.
It's a peony rose. These flowers can symbolise, particularly in Eastern philosophy, a daring, devil may care sort of attitude. As in just go and fucking do it style. Go have some adventures. This is one of the reasons I wanted this flower, apart from it being pretty...
But this is something I've been forgetting lately. I've been too hung up on pleasing other people and forgetting myself. I've been cruising along acting the part society wants me to play. I've been avoiding conflicts and as a result I haven't been honest or authentic. I've realised that while avoiding a fight or argument might make things all sunshine & rainbows on the surface I am being dishonest and it is more damaging to relationships and to myself.
SO if I want to do something, I'm going to fucking well do it
if I want to say something, I'll fucking well say it.
2009-06-01
2009-05-31
2009-05-25
dreamweaver.
I am at a party. The people there are my friends but it is not our party, it is someone else's party we have adopted because the people having the party have moved to a different party next door.
It is a pool party, only the pool is more a pond which takes up most of the space of this half indoor, half outdoor room. The water is murky & there are lilypads. Probably frogs & goldfish. There is a long trestle table completely covered in food. Mainly pizza.
I swim a little, then I sit next to him on a little bench at a table on the edge of the pond. There is a huge ham & pineapple on the table. We are drinking either cheap cask wine or cheap watery beer. His hair is longer than it is in real life. There are hands on smalls of backs and thighs and lingering looks and then we kiss and fall backwards off our little bench onto the ground, but it doesn't hurt. We both have mouthfuls of pizza. I manage to swallow mine before open mouth kissing starts, but he doesn't. Some of his food goes into my mouth and this makes me feel a bit sick. I swallow to make it go away. He swallows. Eventually between the two of us we have swallowed all of his food and the kissing improves.Then the people come back from next door and find us having their party but they don't mind but we don't like them so we leave.
It is a pool party, only the pool is more a pond which takes up most of the space of this half indoor, half outdoor room. The water is murky & there are lilypads. Probably frogs & goldfish. There is a long trestle table completely covered in food. Mainly pizza.
I swim a little, then I sit next to him on a little bench at a table on the edge of the pond. There is a huge ham & pineapple on the table. We are drinking either cheap cask wine or cheap watery beer. His hair is longer than it is in real life. There are hands on smalls of backs and thighs and lingering looks and then we kiss and fall backwards off our little bench onto the ground, but it doesn't hurt. We both have mouthfuls of pizza. I manage to swallow mine before open mouth kissing starts, but he doesn't. Some of his food goes into my mouth and this makes me feel a bit sick. I swallow to make it go away. He swallows. Eventually between the two of us we have swallowed all of his food and the kissing improves.Then the people come back from next door and find us having their party but they don't mind but we don't like them so we leave.
2009-05-24
2009-05-23
True Blood - longest opening credits ever?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z64wSWfoDQ8
still, it's really good. latest OBSESSSION...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z64wSWfoDQ8
still, it's really good. latest OBSESSSION...
2009-05-17
for the love of genes...
I wish I had inherited physicality from mother & mentality from father. Instead of the other way round.
Then I would not only be incredibly intelligent, driven, and an amazing musician, but fucking attractive.
instead of a little neurotic, a little mad, a little moody, fairly impressive thighs and hips and anglo face (which doesn't compare to italian with a dash of chinese.)
Then I would not only be incredibly intelligent, driven, and an amazing musician, but fucking attractive.
instead of a little neurotic, a little mad, a little moody, fairly impressive thighs and hips and anglo face (which doesn't compare to italian with a dash of chinese.)
2009-05-16
philosophy 101
philosophy 101 as in basic basic philosophy, I'm really not much of a philosopher but here is my question for today>>
SO
I know we have to experience pain, to experience pleasure (if life were all good we wouldn't know it was "good" it would be more a plateau, we feel joy, happiness, pleasure and know it is "good" because of the comparison with the times when we feel sadness, pain.) BUT -why must the pain (physical or emotional) we experience (potentially) reach such extremes? If we only knew minor pain, it would still be enough to enhance the pleasurable times. Pain is relative to our own lives and experience. If you have recently lost a loved one, failing a test will not seem like the worst thing in the world, however if failing is the worst thing that has ever happened to you it will seem like a pretty big deal, and you'll probably feel a lot worse about it than the bereaved person. So I don't understand why we have to experience such heavy depressions and moments of really awful luck.
Here endeth the incoherent rant.
SO
I know we have to experience pain, to experience pleasure (if life were all good we wouldn't know it was "good" it would be more a plateau, we feel joy, happiness, pleasure and know it is "good" because of the comparison with the times when we feel sadness, pain.) BUT -why must the pain (physical or emotional) we experience (potentially) reach such extremes? If we only knew minor pain, it would still be enough to enhance the pleasurable times. Pain is relative to our own lives and experience. If you have recently lost a loved one, failing a test will not seem like the worst thing in the world, however if failing is the worst thing that has ever happened to you it will seem like a pretty big deal, and you'll probably feel a lot worse about it than the bereaved person. So I don't understand why we have to experience such heavy depressions and moments of really awful luck.
Here endeth the incoherent rant.
2009-05-14
2009-05-06
2009-05-02
these are some albums I really love. I mean really, really, like I know I can put it on glow with happiness and I could play it non-stop and it would never get old and yet I worry about playing them too much in case the CD gets worn out or if god forbid I do ever get over it...
Fleet Foxes - Fleet Foxes
Aha Shake Heartbreak - KoL
Vol 1 - She & Him
Lovers - The Sleepy Jackson
Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea - PJ Harvey
Juke Box - Cat Power
Fleet Foxes - Fleet Foxes
Aha Shake Heartbreak - KoL
Vol 1 - She & Him
Lovers - The Sleepy Jackson
Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea - PJ Harvey
I'm really pissed off that Mark Wahlberg has been cast as Jack Salmon in the film adaptation of The Lovely Bones. I thought Saiorse Ronan was a brilliant choice for Susie and just now I find out bloody Wahlberg is in it. It is one of my all time favourite books and I'd been hopeful (and pretty certain) that the adaptation was going to be really quite good but now. UGH.
This is just another piece of fucked up news I've had today. I've had enough.
YAY
NAY
This is just another piece of fucked up news I've had today. I've had enough.
YAY
NAY
2009-04-27
Fashpash
Chloe Sevigny wearing socks and sandals at Coachella...
...I hereby predict it will be the next big thing.
...I hereby predict it will be the next big thing.2009-04-25
2009-04-20
Let's talk about...
So you probably have heard that Rubina's* up for sale.
This is one of those issues that since spending time in India, I simply don't know what to think.
"Child actor's father sells her for half a mill" sounds terrible. Ultimate stage parent. But it's fucking India and they're from the fucking slums man. Maybe Rubina thinks it's a rad idea and is mustardly keen. She lives in a slum for crying out loud, she probably has a better relationship with her friends than with her father anyway.**
When you're in India you get used to seeing people do what they can for money. You don't like it, it doesn't fit in well in your western psyche. but it's not your country, it's not your culture, so you have to get over. It's not like he's selling her as a slave, and at least she would never come close to the path her character takes in the film (ie child prostitution at painfully young age.)
The dark side of the third world in incredibly hard to bear.
*as in Ali as in Slumdog star.
** profound apologies if this is not the case...
This is one of those issues that since spending time in India, I simply don't know what to think.
"Child actor's father sells her for half a mill" sounds terrible. Ultimate stage parent. But it's fucking India and they're from the fucking slums man. Maybe Rubina thinks it's a rad idea and is mustardly keen. She lives in a slum for crying out loud, she probably has a better relationship with her friends than with her father anyway.**
When you're in India you get used to seeing people do what they can for money. You don't like it, it doesn't fit in well in your western psyche. but it's not your country, it's not your culture, so you have to get over. It's not like he's selling her as a slave, and at least she would never come close to the path her character takes in the film (ie child prostitution at painfully young age.)
The dark side of the third world in incredibly hard to bear.
*as in Ali as in Slumdog star.
** profound apologies if this is not the case...
2009-04-16
I wish we still had a tree house in our garden, then I could wrap myself in a blanket and sit in it and have a cigarette and watch the rain for a while.
here is a present for you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXgdSOxaCGI
here is a present for you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXgdSOxaCGI
2009-04-15
Time with me is wasted time...
If my cat wasn't curled up so lovlingly on my lap right now I would probably cry.
I have never so strongly felt the notion of time being wasted that I can never get back as I feel about the last week or so.
I have never so strongly felt the notion of time being wasted that I can never get back as I feel about the last week or so.
2009-04-01
Blue, Bonobos
Today I went to the beach.
I lay on the sand and looked up at the sky and could see the dirt in my eyes.
There was a lot.
Do I have dirty eyes?
Dirty Eyes Dirty Mind.
Then I asked my brain to try and fathom how there could be so much blue in the world.
I lay on the sand and looked up at the sky and could see the dirt in my eyes.
There was a lot.
Do I have dirty eyes?
Dirty Eyes Dirty Mind.
Then I asked my brain to try and fathom how there could be so much blue in the world.
Now I'm very tired and I had a fight with my mum tonight so I'm sad.
sigh.
Did you know, Bonobo Monkeys have a special way of easing tension. When they feel a conflict coming on, they HAVE SEX.
Imagine if humans were like this.
2009-03-30
H A I R
I won a free colour at an expensive hairdresser but I don't really want to colour my hair right now.
But I want to use it because I haven't been to a hairdresser for oo maybe a year and the only time I went to an expensive hairdresser was never.
Maybe I should cut?
Is it fringe time again?
Maybe I should get her to dye it as red as possible. Red red. Be properly redheaded.
If you happen to come across this blog, ideas, opinions etc I want them all.
(please don't let me cut my hair it just got long again.)
snip snip
But I want to use it because I haven't been to a hairdresser for oo maybe a year and the only time I went to an expensive hairdresser was never.
Maybe I should cut?
Is it fringe time again?
Maybe I should get her to dye it as red as possible. Red red. Be properly redheaded.
If you happen to come across this blog, ideas, opinions etc I want them all.
(please don't let me cut my hair it just got long again.)
snip snip
2009-03-29
Old Man Love
I was sitting here wishing I had the superpower of transporting anywhere I wanted, anytime so I could magic myself to Sydney and chill with Bill (Nighy), when Rove asked Bill "what super power would you like to have?" and Bill said he wished he could transport himself anywhere he wanted, anytime...
HE'S IN THE COUNTRY.
HE'S IN THE COUNTRY.
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